and its all because of you.....

I have had 2 people ask me this week, "Isn't it hard to still have contact with your birthdaughter?" (now, it was getting brought up because I was going on endlessly about how excited I am to see Josie and her awesome family)

This is such an easy question for me to answer, NOPE!

Yes, at first it was tough. I was seeing a child that I carried in my HUMONGOUS belly for 9 months. Right after I placed her for adoption, I had several nights where I what-if'd all the what-ifs I could.
But I had to mature, heal, and be honest with myself.

It's truly getting easier to do that as time goes on.

I would not be who I am today without Josie.

I would not be confident. I would not know what strength I had. I would not know how I truly felt about my religion. I would not be married to the most amazing man in the whole wide world. I would be hanging out with the wrong people. I would be doing who knows what, who knows where. Basically, I would be a mess.

I have said it soooo many times: Josie saved me. She is an angel sent from God. I am sure of it. POSITIVE! I tell ya. Everytime I look into those beautiful eyes or hear her say my name, I am thankful. Thankful that she changed my life for the better.

Josie girl, its all because of you!

(for clarification purposes, I am not of asian descent. I just have very squinty eyes.)